i know i know, it's something like you're falling in love with an amnesiac patient, and knowing the fact that once he wakes up, he's no longer yours.

yesyes, i totally know.

Sometimes, I don't know if I'm lucky or what. People are always offering help to me, but I rarely accept. Probably due to the fact that I don't know how to repay back. Or probably, they're offering help that doesn't actually help. But then again, speaking of helping, support and always being there is really enough already. thanks :D

Don't worry deb, I won't forget you even after A's. (: Alien baby all the way!

Dirty little confessions

I hate to say this but I'm actually obsessed over a Taiwan drama right now. It's my third one in my 18 years of life, thank god. I can't imagine when will be the time when the number rises up to double digits and I really hope that day won't come cos Taiwan dramas and expensive and very addictive. (although the keyword is expensive)

I really hate being broke. GAHHH. Art has officially robbed 20bucks from me this week and I'm with another 20bucks to get on this full entire weeeek! Assessment books too, robbed me of 27bucks. It's the end already I tell you. BROKE. If I were to declare bankrupt, will the bank take away my ipod too? :( and my camera?

Shit, I'm digressing. Anyway, as I was saying about the Taiwan drama, it's The Prince That Turned Into A Frog. It's quite an addictive show, considering the fact that the main lead is pretty hot - MingDao. He is veh cute. I like his tan - is he a rugby player? LOL. just kidding please. Anyway, he does and say stuff to the female lead which makes my heart melt into liquid and can never solidify again. :( MING DAOO :( omg omg and his smile, walao, *faints.

That's him:D

CUTE RIGHT!? Even if you don't find him cute, his tan is VERY NICE still, so I don't careee.

Okay, shit, I can't get over him........................

I specially wake up at 11am every sunday to watch the drama series till today, when I found out that it starts at 10am. &^%$%##&*^( no wonder I was like thinking, how come they cut out so many parts. Oh, and to reward my stupidity, I have decided to purchase the VCD soon, which means I'll be like having -$8974689135425 (negative value). YES.

:(

MINGDAO!!

:D

ELLE O ELLE

So MR HU had 15min of fame on my blog. aka WEELIAM

okay fine, you so not sporting one. aiyer.

My Hair and Ashley. HAHAHA

That was what I did to my hair.

I just updated my anti-virus software and I feel very very safe right now. KILL ALL VIRUSES...

And this is what Ashley wanted me to post, HER REPLY FOR ME, if not she will take knife and chop off my HAIR. HAHAHAHAHAH

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
haha becos i said im marykate&you laughed so i was like "eh this girl like abit siao ah!can make fren, can make fren" ahha i thought you looked friendly!

2. Associate you with a song / movie.
I'll be, eh this song is frigging nice!! (:
& all the sappy love songs, you're one of the few that sends me songs that i like!

"I'll be the greatest fan of your life"

3. Tell a random fact about you.
you're damn lame, but somestimes your jokes are funny! you like t do retarded things!

4. Tell a first memory about you.
small, cute, bubbly girl whos always wit this chij girl haha which is huixin!

5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
what fruit/animal is retarded ah? haha! ehh i think.. dogs? cos they're cute!

6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
ehhh.duno leh.haha.

7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ.

TADA. SO IF YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW I THINK ABOUT YOU, ASK AND I'LL TYPE fOR YOU. KTHXBYE

BRBTMR.

Restart,restart

Hold on..

Jagung.

Yay, I just finished printing art.

Keyword: PRINTING. Which means it's not done yet. Very exciting.

I hope I'll make it through tomorrow and come back to blog about my econs escapades alive. I need all your blessings, SIGHS.

SRJC ALL 4 UUUU

I'm a true SrJcian.


Do you have 10cents?
why?
I want to make a phonecall to my mom, telling her that I found the one. (:

AWWWWWWWWWWWW~.

Hi Miss Tan

So Miss Tan publicly announced to the whole class that she read my blog, and probably, I think, she read a rather angsty post of mine. (then again, which post isn't angsty? SIGHS)

I think it's the post where I ranted about friends who don't take art and kept saying art is a easy subject, and teachers complaining to us about marking is more tiring yada yada. Sighs, of all posts. But then again, it's really okay, for teachers to read blogs (if you're not doing anything wrong/illegal that is,), since the principal, also read our blogs.

As much as I don't want to admit, I suddenly felt very vulnerable and exposed when Ms Tan said that because this blog serves as a medium for me to really rant every displeasure I have in my life(so called "LIFE"). So now, it's like Ms Tan's not only in school, but she's also around in the virtual world, which I happen to find it quite interesting and happening - in a good way - Mother surfs the net! So she probably saw my other side - the bitching and swearing and angsty side of me, which I think, in the entire teaching staff, only 1 knows about it. (maybe the bitching part) HAHAH. Also, it was at that moment that all eyes turned and stared at me, probably waiting for my reaction, but I gave none - probably too traumatised by the results. *shudders*

I think I need compliments once in awhile. Too much thrashing does no good.

Getting back of results, which are all equally bad, but differently handled by teachers, allows me to compare and contrast some of the teachers - which was quite unexpected.

and A4 has graciously snatched the 0%tage pass in econs back to our hands again. NOT well done.

Anyway, I'm rather determined to start a new lifestyle - that is staying back in school to study. There's too many distractions at home. Infact, the word "home'' is already a distraction. There's the bed behind me, which is constantly calling out to me, the fridge, which is always begged to be opened, the computer, which begs to sing some songs and the tv, which begs to display some cartoons of my choice. And due to the fact that I am a rather soft-hearted person (HAHAHAHAHAHAH), I relented and it was the end. Thank you.

I stayed back at school today, supposedly alone. Along came Ada, then Cynthia. HAHAHAH. Classic I tell you. Cynthia is another joke - she needs a crash course on how to pin hair.

(i just received a wonderful news that math test has been postponed. which means, i can go to bed now)

Till then people. (:

This is from my point of view.

Things to prepare yourself if you're intending to enter JC/tertiary system:

- stress ball
- a private blog
- a spare clock
- a computer
- track shoes
- fists
- a colour printer
- with loads of ink refills
- pens
- with loads of pen refills
- papers
- money

Now that I know how to do my econs questions with all the research that I've done on the net, I don't feel like doing it anymore cos the challenging part isn't there, which means there will be no thrills and I can't witness myself plucking and pulling out all the hair on my head for a while.

I reallly neeeed money to buy some necessary stuff for school, like foolscap, pens, another college tee, fbts, beach touch, notes, printing of a 60 page book... yadayada......... working is out of the question because I barely have the time to sleep and complete my homework and it will just tire me out further.

I think I know what to dooooooooooooooooooo. i'll bring food from home/not eat......... i can diet and get the stuff that I want at the same time tooooooooo..... I reallly wanna be less than 50kg..... 50kg, in fact sounds fat already. GAH GAH GAH I SHALL SHUT UP I THINK IM EATING TOO MUCH AIR GAH GAH GAH GAH.

bye and remember to do your homework and the weird gp mock exam on next sat. heh.

I really do.

Pictionary

I am a happy girl because:

1. I've cracked Adobe Photoshop CS3. Now, I can use it forever.
2. iBanking notification has arriveddddd
3. Timetable is berry short. I don't see why should I come to school on Fridays.
4. uh..
5. umm.

(+3)

I am a sad girl because:

1. Art isn't done.
2. Econs isn't done either
3. Math too.
4. I have to sleep late tonight again.
5. I can't decide whether to go for rugby tmr or stay at home to do work.
6. I have to wipe off my shiny nails
7. I've been eating alot.
8. And not exercising much

(-8)

3 - 8 = (-5)

In conclusion, I am not happy (FOR NOW).

And there's a constant trend in my posts. Whenever school's about to open, the posts gets rather depressing and all it says is about my pathetic sad school life. And whenever holidays are about to come, or during the holidays, I'll be so excited, to the extent that the posts would be rather little.

Sometimes I think I'm bipolaric (like there's such a word).

Nontheless, Pictionary! :D












there's more but art's calling bye

Triangles.

I've been using the computer so much for art to the extent that I could just merge together with my beloved computer and call it the 'Compunette','Windows Pistachios'

And to all creatures out there who think A level art is easier than your whatever gu niang subjects your're taking instead of art, get a life if not I'll end your life. IT'S SO NOT EASIER. It's either on par, or even worse than your subjects. Yes, we have to do trigger notes too, having in mind that we have the THEORY BASED part of our Art history. Yes, we have to spend time too, MORE TIME to be exact as we have both practical and theory to face. We have to memorise dates too, like when this artist was born, when he turned gay or when did he started to change his art and when he died. Yes, there is a SPECIFIC date for all these. There are names of places, like where did they study and lived, and names of other people that influenced them and name of their artworks. Bearing in mind that we have to analyse the artwork, the textures, brush strokes, colour, yadayada. We also have to memorise the POD AND EOD.

Save your comments, such as "Woah, luckily I never take art if not sure cmi" because it's ain't helping and I'm really not interested whether your luck is good or what because that's entirely your business, not mine.

In conclusion, keep your comments to yourself because we only accept constructive criticisms. IF you want to compare, please face the wall and talk to it instead. kthx

And I don't understand why teachers always say that marking 300 over scripts is actually more tiring than us studying. While they are marking 200 over scripts with a certain academic boundary, and we're studying for like 5 different subjects, not closely related. Aren't they like just doing the same thing over and over again? Maybe for the essays part, it might be more tiring because the answers are not fixed and students have the choice to choose the questions that they prefer. But still, it's quite predictable, afterall, students doing the same question would have similar answers right? But we students have to study 5 differents subjects, twisting and flipping our brains so that we can change to adapt to the type of questions set to us.

I know, it's all about training us for the future. *sighs. But at least, stop saying that marking is much more tiring than studying because it makes me feel like a loser at times. Like teaching is the worse career(though i don't disagree), and studying is nuts. because, for us, now studying is not nuts, it's a huge plate of main course.

Show some care and understanding please.

Okay, photoshop is calling me. And econs is making an appointment with me tomorrow. WHAT ABOUT RUGBY!? GAH. Can't wait for all these to end and I'll be burning all these paper for fun during the next mid autumn festival which I missed for the past 2 years due to studying.

As much as I hate to say this to myself, school is way more important than rugby. and in order to play rugby, I have to study.

*stabs self repeatedly at the chest area.

I GOT TAGGED AGAIN!! WO XI HUAN!

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 7 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
Continue this game by sending it to other people.

I got tagged by siewsiew.(:

If your lover betrayed you, what would ur reaction be?
Confused, I think, then all the other emotions will start wheeling in.

If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
hmm, for now, get reallly good grades for A's and get into NUS FASS SOCIO(or thereabouts) & touch team with my teamies.

What will your dream wedding be like?
Botanical Gardens is really hot. And there's a black swan that will eat you up.
I guess Beach? When the sun is about to set. Although sunrise also very nice, but I lazy wake up so early.

Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
YES D: But i really hope to clear up the fog.

What's your ideal lover like?
A rugby player. HAHAHAHAHAH OK NOT A MUST BUT PREFERABLY. I guess, having money is important too.(don't tell me you wanna marry a pooor guy). Sweet, yet shy. Initiative. Being there. Humorous/cute. Rather laid back. The list goes on and it seems unattainable. OKAY, that guy with a heart-warming smile and a sparkle in his eyes. (:

Do you have a person you wish you will be with now?
Keanu Reeves, but everyone told me to stop it. HAHAHA. OKAY MY IDEAL LOVER IS SOMETHING LIKE HIM. :D Not the age wise la, he's rather old. On a more serious note, I guess so.

Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
The greatest thing in life is to love and to be loved in return - Moulin Rouge!
I guess, it comes in a package. love and be loved. But it hurts when it's a one-sided thing, Im sure.

How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
:O I have no idea. I once liked a guy for 3 years? But it could have been shorter if he didn't gave mixed signals. :S

If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
Forget about it. or continue liking him, but don't show it? The former is rather hard, but it'll fade off eventually as you'll get rather sick of getting no returns. :( Being a third party is a no-no.

Is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
YES. I get irritated very easily eversince I entered J2. So you could say I'm practically unhappy when it comes to school without CCA. I love my CCA - which is one of the things that make me happy, due to the people in it. And the cliche part of being unhappy, like being left out, accused etc.

Is being tagged fun?
- Berry.

Who are currently the most important people to you?
- family(duh), close friends.

What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- she like to eat siewmai. HAHAHAHA. She's very nice and emotional at times, I guess it's school.

Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
-This is hard. Okay. Single and rich, since the question didn't state anything about being in a happy marriage :D

Would you give all in a relationship?
- What relationship? all to the best i can. It depends on the situation and who.

If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
None. It would then be my fault for being so spontaneous, so i'll punish myself. heh. OKAY LA. or pick the one that likes you? EEee.

describe an ideal date.
The typical traditional beach walks, chilling at starbucks with a heart to heart talk, movies, a rugby/soccer game, going to the zoo, learning how to roller blade...


If given the chance to turn back time, will you?
- Yes

What is the last thing you would do before you die?
- Play a last game for as long as I can. Force william to treat the regulars to movies or starbucks or coffee bean. Hug everyone goodbye without stating why (AWWW DRAMAMAMA), call my mom and dad, saying that they don't have to tuck me to bed anymore and love them tonnes. Thank the guy for creating such wonderful memories by just existing.. Call wife and FBT, and tell them now they will have to send me off, instead of jannie to another country. Do the farmer handshake and hi-5 with chewy. Tell shengbiao to don't leylong himself. tell soyah that she's finally cute. tell elana to stop wearing sports bra. tell the fbt gang that now they have to feature me in their photos by photoshopping.. watch a late night soccer match at the coffeeshop together with tp. do a last parade. tell ow that he'll always be the best PC and mary that he really handsome. tell my mom that i'll always be 18 and I AM 18... tell all the skinny ah lians to stop stuffing tissue into their bra.

you're tagged !

I
seriously
don't
know
who
to
tag.

OKAY!

Jannie
LinQiang
LAMA
thebra(i don't think she'll do)
Minling
Keanu Reeves
David Cook

Pimples.

Rugby was shiok. It's been awhile. Started at 10am (some stupid nehnehs were late) when it was supposedly to start at 9am, make laoniang wake up so early! LBHFULJDH. And we ended around 1. Played like free. Very very good.

Something rare I think. I think and I hope there'll be another one next week, which would most probably be the last one :(, till we all get send back to hell to mug like fuck again. So, uh, will miss the guys of course, and the girls. (: But can we still play on every alternate saturdays? HAHAHA. willy, you must make the choice. I think it's cool though, fortnightly ain't that bad la.

Such stuff are things that I really like to do, but won't really get the chance to do it. Talk about opportunities and chances. :S

I was intending to blog about the future, about rugby and photography, but I decided against it cos afterall, it's my future. (:

Anyway, some weird psycho resolutions:

1. Stop saying 'fuck'. Like totally exclude it from my vocab bank from today onwards.
2. LOSE WEIGHT IN TIME. SIAO ALR.
3. Lesser Hokkien and more Cantonese.
4. Run
5. Study smart

Not in any order.

And to YOU(THE BLOODY LITTLE POS):

You could have just fucking reply me. Get this straight, it's YOU cutting off all connections with me, NOT ME cutting off with you. IT'S YOU. So save the pretence you have to come up with whenever you see me in person in school. What's with acting nice(teeny weeny extent) and all smiley when you're with my friends? That's disgusting. A reply, wouldn't die! Fuck no! I WILL NOT GET MISLED BY A "YEAH SURE" or "haha, ok. what are the details?" I WILL NOT GET MISLED AND THINK THAT YOU LIKE ME. GROW UP FOR GOD'S SAKE. You're bloody 18, and still so immature in your thinking?! What's going through your mind all the time huh? And stop talking about the 'misleading me' part, I just feel like slaughtering you everytime you tell our common friend about it. You mean it as if I'm like throwing myself on you. AM I!? NO!!!! I JUST ASKED WHETHER YOU WANT TO HELP OR NOT, AND IT WASN'T EVEN TYPED BY ME! I JUST FORWARD WHATEVER MSG THAT WAS SENT TO ME, AND NEEDED YOUR HELP, THAT'S ALL. A reply won't die la omg! AND IM FREAKING NOT THROWING MYSELF ON YOU! ARGH. YOU HAVE TO GET THIS STRAIGHT. IM NOT MISLED. NOT! I don't know how many times I have to reemphasise on this BUT I AM NOT! Stop making me sound like a total airhead please, thank you very much asshole. ergh. If an sms would be misleading, I would have died infinite times, thanks.

GAH. IDIOT STUFF.

I RIPPED THIS FROM JAC COS IM BORED

001. What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
a friend

002. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yes.

003. What happened at 10.00am today?
attempting to wake up.

004. When did you last cry?
3 days ago, after watching moulin rouge!.

005. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
i don't like peanut butter

006. What do you want in your life right now?
1 fucking good grades for a's
2 get into nus fass socio and join touch team.
3 money.

007. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
i walk under it.

008. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
bolsterrrrrrrrrrr

009. What bottom are you wearing now?
boxers.

010. Whats the nicest text in your inbox say?
currently? "don't la, just don't think of the end results. U noe u have tried your best then dun care alrdy.. c'mon dun tell me lyn cannot take pressure sia" (: a good friend.

011. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
no.

012. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nope.

013. What was the last movie you caught?
MOULIN ROUGE :(

014. What are you proud of?
my friends.

015. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
":)"

016. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Your Song

017. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
nette, lyn, netnet, nettiebaby(sighs), ai, ling, ai ling, ah net, twinny, jayem, neh neh pok, ah neh, breasts..

018. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
SLY. IBANKING LOR

019. What time did you go to bed last night?
1plus

020. Are you currently happy?
pretty alright.

021. Who gives you best advice?
haven't really found the best.

022. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
eee.

023. Who did you talk on phone last night?
no one.

024. Is anything bugging you right now?
yes

025. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
my dad

026. Do you wear toe socks?
sometimes

027. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
william

028. Have you ever had your heart broken?
i guess so.

029. What annoys you most in a person?
the way he or she speaks, actions

030. Do you have a crush on anyone?
nope. HAHAHAHA

031. Have you ever done cocaine?
nope

032. What is the colour of your room?
white

033. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
YES. HAHAHAHA. IM REALLY BROKE.

034. Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
yes.

035. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
jannnieeeeeeeeeeee

036. Who was the last person to hug you?
um.

037. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
who did i kissed?

038. Do you have a life?
yup. wake up, survive and sleep.

039. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
nope.

040. What is the reason behind your profile song?
there's no song what.

041. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
KEANU REEVES!!!! OMG OMG OMG.

042. Last time you smiled?
just with dad

043. Have you changed this year?
i think so

044. What are you listening to right now?
paramore

045. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
nope, waiting.

046. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
open la then?

047. Is there a quote you live by?
it changes. (:

048. Do you want someone you can't have?
nope/

049. Have you ever played an instrument?
i can play a little of the guitar

050. What was the worst idea you've had in a week?
carving on styrofoam.

051. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
trying to change the blogskin

052. Are you happy with your love life right now?
what love life?

053. What song describe your love life?
Friends - kaitlyn

054. Does the person know that you like him/her?
sadly, no. he's in hollywood. LOL

055. Who always make you laughs?
when you mix sly with jiayu.

056. Do you speak other language other than English?
broken canton, hokkien + malay, chinese+english+hokkien+malay

057. Are you blonde?
nope, but valerie is!

058. Whats your middle name?
i dont have a middle name.

059. What are you doing tomorrow?
RUGBY :D

060. What do you think you are like?
i think i'm weird, with a tinge of bipolarism.

061. Who will you choose to die with?
siao, i wanna die alone.

062.Where have you been today?
home, tm

063. What game do you play often?
MINESWEEPER. HAHAHAHA EVERSINCE I BEAT STEFAN.........

064. Who are you missing right now?
I MISS ALOT. (: the coterie feat. jac, wife + clique, jayem, some of the classmates, my holy friend charmaine, marcus, thebra....

065. If you've to choose between friends & love, who will you choose?
friends.

066. What are you doing right now?
trying to close my eyes

067. Which primary school are you from?
bedok south then green.

068. Name 3 colours that you like.
black white red. ( JACKY WHY YOU SAME AS MOI)

069. What emotion you like to show?
nothing, so people will think im actually staring at them, plotting against them.

070. What is life to you?
life sucks.

071. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
scream into the pillow, curse and go to sleep. oh, and eat of course

072. Who did you last chat with in MSN today?
pat.

073. Who do you admire the most?
i admire alot. MY COACH. AHAHAHHA really.

074. Which month are you born in?
SEPPY

075. How are you feeling right now?
sian diao.

076. What is the time now?
930pm

077. Where are you now?
roomeh

078. What food do you like best?
my mom's food

079. Why are you doing this test?
cos i'm bored.

080. What do you do when you're moody?
sleep and run and rugby

081. At what age you wish to get married?
huhhhhhhhhh :(

082. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend/girlfriend or friends?
friends, like how everyone would say

083. Do you think you have enough confidence?
it depends on my mood.

084. Who is the person you trust the most?
GAH GAH

086. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
PLAY FOR SPORE. WITH COTERIE

087. What is your goal for this year?
AABB minimum.

088. Do you believe in eternal love?
not really.

089. What feeling do you love most?
winning and owning everything, being praised, the feeling of knowing someone loves you (:

090. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
ya la walao eh

091. What feeling you hate the most?
left out.

092. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes

093. Do you believe in God?
yes

094. Who cares for you the most?
family. friends?

095. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends.

096. What'll you bring when you fight?
HAIR CLIPS, MY CAI CAN

097. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
alot..

098. What would you feel that no one no longer cares for you??
wah shit,

099. What if your stead two-timed you?
break up.

100. What would you want to change about your life?
my brains, no, then the memories will be gone too

funny little convos.

me: pa, tmr i'm going school for rugby. need to wake up at 7 k?
dad: don't play rugby la.
me: cannot! i need to exercise already.
dad: later your bones all break.
me: won't la.
dad: unless you're insurred.
me: if i'm insurred, you'll willingly let me play rugby? (thinking about contact rugby)
dad: hmm, no.

me: (speechless)

---

mom: who's going for your friend's bday party?
me: alot i think.
mom: all teenagers, so dangerous. later kena kidnap how.
me: huh? kidnap? what?
mom: tsk. the parents leh?
me: yeah, her parents and relatives too of course la.
mom: oh. ok, can go.

me: (stunned)

The greatest thing..

This is something rare, or probably something you would never hear from me;

I think I need spiritual support too.

& the change in skin was totally impromptu because I just felt like changing it and playing with some html. No ulterior motive. I'm not tired, but my mom insists I go to bed now.

Mom, I'm 18 this year.

KingLear@DCT was, flabberghasting. I guess, it's a rather different play.

It's like you keep stuffing food into your mouth even though you're no where close being hungry. And after that, you'll be so guilty about the extra pounds you're gonna gain.

It's like we're supposed to be close friends. But we walk in a 2-2-1 fashion, with you being the 1, feeling so pathetic and extra to the extent of smsing someone who's barely 2m away from you.

It's like putting up a strong front, and pretending that everything's alright, even though you know you are very screwed inside.

It's like shrugging everything off and pretending you're cool with him not talking to you for no random reason, even though you really want to know what the hell is going through his fucked up mind.

It's like pretending you're totally alright with people entering and leaving your life just like that even though you seriously feel like asking why.

It's like pretending to be enthusiastic when you're actually quite sick and tired of all these crap that should never happen to anyone.

When the cold wind blows

I think typing the "Liberation Day" post was a sin and I just received the punishment for that. So right after liberation day and post liberation day, I got a really really really really bad flu, which consists of a whooping 38.2 degrees celcius of fever which came and go like as if it was checking into a random boarding house.

And the main thing was that, it lasted throughout, till now.

Which means, I went for art being sick like free.
Which means, I played rugby when I was sick like free.
Which means, when people question me why am I playing rugby when I'm sick, I get speechless. Because the answer would sound a little offensive: "Because I want to play rugby"

Nonetheless, I don't regret going for the game on saturday. (: It was a good catch up with the army boys - The Medic, The Commando and The Police, of course with edddy, at the Coffee bean. Despite the fact that I got screwed for coming back late, other than that, it was great. Johnny Johnny Johnny Johnny Woosh Johnny Woosh Johnny Johnny Johnny Johnny.

When the cold wind blows..

I NEED TO SLEEP NOW.

We do it in the dark, with smiles on our faces.

Post-liberation-day post.

Okay, I don't really how am I feeling right now. :( But one thing's for sure that I'm sick. HEH. My dream came true at the wrong time. So sian diaoooooooo ~

Anyway, art has been improving I guess. I decided to be input-ive. HAHA. So I babbled whatever I had in my mind for the past few years to Ms kwa and she seems pretty interested in my ideas, I THINK. So I guess, there's hope afterall. I really really wanna get an A or B for my art. A la A la. But judging at where I am, and where my classmates are at now (except for the fact that the video people are like speedracers. Michelle is like already watching Love Undercover 2, which means, she AHEAD OF TIME ZOMG)

Let me a little cool now and review on the arto people:

HanPin : commit suicide and killing babies
Deb : drinking coffeeeee
Lisa : excursion.
Elana : Fort canning, HAHAHA
CS : MACBOOK MACBOOK MACBOOK -- that's art for him.
YJ : Cement, no form.
Ter : plaiting her hair.
Ain : touching bodies.
Nurul : DnT
Nette : Plaster of Paris.
Michelle : Love Undercover I II

OKAY, NOT VERY INFORMATIVE, BUT QUITE INTERESTING RIGHT!? NO!?

IT IS.

Anyway, I'm feeeeeeling like crap cos I desperately need adobe photoshop CS2 or CS3. GAHHHh. It costs like 700 bucks. So, hint hint (:

I will attempt to download both. I shall be independant (: ehhh, but seriously. I needddd them :(

WOAH, I'm like in desperate need of alot of things, which include intangible stuff like time. =/

Talking about life seriously makes me feel like shitting.

current music : I WRITE SINS NOT TRAGEDIES - P!ATD

see, I wasn't lying about hanpin killing babies

Liberation Day

Basically, despite screwing MYEs big time, I feel really good this time round.

Today is the Liberation Day of all J2 SRJCIANS.

I'm a happy kid and to reward myself for all the hard work that I've done for the past weeks, I shall let my bed swallow me.

current music: tonight - fm static.

desperate measures.

acrylic paints and medium - daler rowney system 3 (GAH)

okay, so as you can see, i'm pretty depressed with the fact that i got CFP and only managed to buy 3 tubes of paint, of which 1 is a medium to thicken the paint - so that i can look like a pro, just kidding.

which means, I have 2 new addition colours. Red and white. I bet I'm the poorest art student ever. OH, those 3 tubes of toothpaste lookalike cost me 19 bucks, mind you. And I need like more more more! and I NEED OIL PAINT TOOOOOOOOOO. it's both a want and a need. THE H2O SOLUBLE. kind of oil paint. walao eh, I'm freaking desperate for paints NOW.

water colours are cheap. HAHAHAHAHA. NTUC got sell the not so good quality kind. shall have to make doooo.

so, wifey was with me the entire day today, causing her to skip the not so important part, like going for school . HAHA
despite the fact that photo taking wasn't much productive, time spent with wifey roaming around was definitely priceless. (: oh, and of course, a couple of cam whoring sessions.

OKAY, I FOUND A SOLUTION.

I SO GONNA BE A FREAKING MEMBER OF ART FRIEND.

and im gonna download the forms NOW.

current music: I can tell there was an accident here earlier - Saosin